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Diary Of A Submissive – Sophie Morgan

on September 9, 2012

Diary Of A Submissive
Sophie Morgan
Penguin AU
2012, eBook
Copy courtesy of the publisher via NetGalley

Sophie Morgan is an independent woman living in England with a successful job in journalism who just happens to be a submissive. It details her story from the time she was first spanked with a hairbrush in college and found herself enjoying it to finding men interested in the same things she was but on the other side of the coin – she wanted to submit, they wanted to dominate.

This novel details her journey going from fresh-faced college student surprised when her lover introduces the hairbrush to a woman who spends time at the feet of a man, licking his toes for as long as he requires in order for her to be able to satisfy herself at the end of the ‘exercise’. As Sophie herself says, she isn’t/wasn’t abused. She didn’t have a hard life growing up, her parents are still happily married and she’s still on very good terms with them. She wasn’t using this as a way of dealing with a deep or inner pain, a previous trauma. She was simply turned on by the idea of being forced to submit to a man, to be humiliated and often hurt. Being made to do things that she didn’t want to do. In between all of these she holds down a full time job, lives in her own apartment and visits her parents on holidays.

Although this is apparently the ‘real-life’ journal of a ‘real-life’ submissive woman, it’s written under a pseudonym and I have to wonder why. To be honest, this doesn’t read like anyone’s real-life journal of anything. It reads like a romance novel, all superlative descriptions of sexual scenes and boneshaking orgasms. There was very little substance, it seems like the book is padded out with a lot of BDSM “scenes” and actually focuses precious little on the mechanics of BDSM and what leads people to seek it out and the sort of lifestyle that it really is. I didn’t just want to hear about Sophie counting her cane strokes and thanking her Dom for every single of one of them, I wanted to hear about the failures as well – the scenes that didn’t work, the times that they got it wrong, the times that it didn’t leave her feeling soooo amazing!  The first real experience she details within the book of entering a BDSM “relationship” (if I can use that word, maybe “agreement” is better because it’s something they do to mutually satisfy their own fantasies. They don’t date, so they aren’t in a traditional relationship in any sense and they are free to see other people), is heavy on the fabulousness of it, the thing is, they’re both two people experimenting really. Thomas, the Dom in question is a friend of hers, someone that she knows quite well for a long time before she confesses her fantasies in a general chat about sex. In turn he sort of thinks he might like to try getting her to submit, he thinks it’s something he finds interesting and that he might be able to do. Surely there was a learning curve? A time when things didn’t work out? Where there were misunderstandings and things that just plain went wrong?

There’s a lot of blushing and feeling humiliated and wanting to tell Thomas to go fuck himself but she’s just too stubborn to give up. That doesn’t actually sound like someone who wants to submit to me. It doesn’t ever feel like she  wants to submit to Thomas because that’s what she wants to do, it seems like she tolerates submitting to Thomas so that he can do XYZ to her and then she can have one or more amazing orgasms.

Then we move on to James, who at first is painted as more palatable than Thomas (who really was the most epic tool, I spent my time reading his section rolling my eyes repeatedly). He seems funny, smart, well educated and also quite different in his approach to having her submit but then he kind of spins out in some kind of ridiculous Madonna/whore confidence crisis that seemed to make relatively little sense towards the end of the book. We’re spent most of the book being told by Sophie how strong she is and how much power she finds in her submission and yet only once does she actually stand up for herself and tell James what a twat he’s been and that involves a mere minute of talking in a raised voice on the doorstep, slamming the door in his face and then crying for days because she feels bad about it.

I get there’s a trend right now – these books are quite popular, people have read the one that was catapulted onto the bestseller’s list and now they’re looking for more. Publishers are hoping to provide them with that. But this just does not strike me as being genuine. Sophie never seems to actually enjoy anything that she’s doing in terms of “submitting”. She doesn’t like being caned, or whipped, or spanked at the time – she sobs, she seems terrified at times, she wants to scream and yell and use her safe word but “stubborness” stops her. Time and time again. It doesn’t seem that the scenes are natural, they seem written in a way that makes them seem very staged, and perhaps that’s because with Tom in particular, they weren’t in a relationship. They were just two people sharing a kink. And even the way she seems to meet people who just happen to be the ying to her yang, seems fake and unbelievable. Tom was her friend and as soon as she confessed she had been spanked and liked it he was all like ‘oh hey, I could do that!’ and James she interviewed for work and the questions he asked, the way he acted just make it so obvious that he was DOMINANT LOOKING FOR SUBMISSIVE. In fact if he’d had a sign plastered to his forehead with his Fetlife handle and a/s/l it wouldn’t have been more obvious.

I didn’t hate this book but I was always looking for more. More to the experience, more depth to the characters, the scenes and their quest to find themselves in the lifestyle they wanted to lead. I just don’t think this book really explored submission and nor did it ring true to me for what it is like in a world of jobs, families, bills etc. It felt far too ‘erotic romance book world’ where no one needs to go to the toilet in the middle of a scene, where people can cry and still look beautiful.

4/10

Book #171 of 2012

 

 


2 responses to “Diary Of A Submissive – Sophie Morgan

  1. I agree with everything you’ve written here, Bree. I finally got around to reading it because I wanted a comparison before reading The Secret Life of a Submissive and it was a good idea as it turns out. The latter, by Sarah K, is more like what we were hoping for from this one (and doesn’t have an annoying heroine to boot). I’ve written my review of this but feel like deleting it all and just putting “What Bree said” instead. 😉

  2. […] “I didn’t hate this book but I was always looking for more. More to the experience, more depth to the characters, the scenes and their quest to find themselves in the lifestyle they wanted to lead. I just don’t think this book really explored submission and nor did it ring true to me for what it is like in a world of jobs, families, bills etc. It felt far too ‘erotic romance book world’ where no one needs to go to the toilet in the middle of a scene, where people can cry and still look beautiful.” All the Books I Can Read […]

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